I hadn't known my husband for more than two months before he started in on me to have a baby. His constant pestering lead to progressively harsher responses from me, starting from"eventually", "someday", "not me, not now", "leave me alone", to "have your own damn baby".

Last Spring something in me started to shift and I became more and more serious about the possibility of having a baby. After months of internal dialog, I finally gathered the courage to share the news with my husband who was expectedly ecstatic. (I haven't told the dogs yet - they are going to be devastated!)

Sharing the news with Loren, my husband, opened the flood gates and I finally started researching what to expect, what to eat, what to do to prepare, and what the birthing process would look like....which at first was pretty anxiety provoking, as I started out by watching "The Business of Being Born" (not recommended as a place to start).

Here I plan to document interesting, perception changing information I come across in what will be a successful journey towards a positive pregnancy and childbirth.


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Home vs. Hospital Birth

I have a pretty different perspective on this now that my belly is growing and the reality of having to push a baby out is becoming more....umm.....real. I think pregnancy is 9 months for a reason. You have that time to process things and prepare. With child birth being such a scary thing for me, I think trying to plan as much as possible to create a sense that I will know what the day of delivery will look like takes some of the fear out of it. However, deep down I know that I can't really plan for anything and when I go into labor it's not going to matter if I am not in the most ideal, comforting setting (hospitals totally freak me out), I'm just going to want the baby to be safe and healthy and out. I feel much less drawn to home birth than I was initially, especially with this being the 1st time around.  I think it would actually create more anxiety for me.  I am not afraid of complications so much as not having access to pain medication if necessary.  I'd rather not be super drugged up, but I also don't want it to be a traumatic experience that I don't enjoy at all because of how badly I am hurting. 
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