I still feel like a fraud telling people I'm pregnant. It hasn't become a reality yet for either of us. So for I've taken 5 pregnancy tests. Loren bought a bulk pack online so we have some extras. He had me take one yesterday and when it came back positive he got all giddy and giggly, as if he didn't already know what the results would be. I took one the morning after we told our families because I still didn't believe it. Shockingly, they've all come back positive. I'm pretty anxious to go to the doctor to hear a heart beat. Emphasis on "a" heart beat. We were at an end of the year staff party and one of my co-works put twin voodoo on me. Yikes!
I'm not feeling sick at all. Although I sneezed the other day and I swear I thought my little embryo might have popped out. I got really dizzy and almost passed out. I looked it up online and found out the pain was just my uterus stretching and it's normal to get dizzy, especially when getting out of bed in the morning. The pain brought on a whole new wave of anxiety about ectopic pregnancy... must manage the anxiety, as that is certainly a symptom I've been experiencing.
My mom said she felt queazy, but never actually got sick when she was pregnant, so that's hopeful. I'm not feeling quite as tired either. I know I was going through so major caffeine withdrawls after giving up coffee, but not so much any more - just finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning when I know there's no pick me up waiting. In solidarity, Loren has given up alcohol as well, which is actually really nice for me, especially right now. Having a few drinks has been my social clutch for a long time. Finally being forced to face my fears will be good practice in becoming more of an adult. I think it will be a lesson in moderation for both of us - good practice and habits to get into. Loren initially had the idea to not drink when I am pregnant, but I feel like everyone is assuming that I have forced him into the decision. I hope he sticks with it, but I'm not forcing him. He might get in trouble with some of his male friends who's pregnant wives want them to follow suit.
Sleeping has already become somewhat of an issue, which I wasn't expecting so soon. I've never been that great at nighttime sleeping, but now when I wake up, I am wide awake and feel ready to start the day. I'm not looking forward to not being able to sleep on my back and stomach, which I'll have to stop doing around week 20. I already toss and turn like crazy and I can't imagine that is going to get any better. I sporadically take melatonin, but it looks like it might not be such a good idea to take when pregnant.
I woke up the other day with the worst stiff neck of my life and was petrified of what the day would look like without being able to take pain medication. I got out the heating pad and went back to sleep for about an hour and magically by the time I had to get up for work the stiff neck had almost completely gone away. I've never experienced such dramatic results with a heating pad. I guess there is some hormone running through my body that is making me more stretchy so I can grown and get baby out. That's probably the cause of the stiff neck.
One unexpected thing that I've been enjoying is certain foods tasting better than ever! Same goes for certain smells. It's like they are saturated in goodness. It's almost like when I'm eating or smelling them, everything else fades to the back ground and it's all I can focus on. So far the good to bad smell/taste ratio has been skewed in my favor. I had never heard of the good side of the heightened olfactory situation before, although I suppose it makes prefect sense.
So, with all this having been said...I guess I really am pregnant.
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